Love is Louder [Vol. 2]: Time Capsule

Friday, February 18, 2011

Time Capsule

For a change of pace you can check out my tumblr blogs ~ here and here ~ which are quite active these days.

[this post inspired by Rae and her Wellness Art-ivity blog challenge]

The box has an open position, representing my self and my heart having opened themselves to the truth and goodness that awaits. This time capsule essentially tells the story of the small gifts I have received and continue to receive in the wake of kicking my drug addiction. Toilet paper, because now I can afford to buy it, I no longer need to steal it. Love ~ true and steadfast, the kind my rage and selfishness blocked me from accepting. Money, I have more of it available to worthy endeavours, since I choose to no longer fund the drug dealers. What worthy endeavours? Simple and sweet things such as heart-shaped candies and chocolate. Pretty things like flowers and plants. Cool things like my new LG Gossip mobile phone. And that's all I have to say about that.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...: Thank you for this snapshot of your life! You are already on such an awesome journey of wellness. Not only are you able to meet your essential needs, but you are also able to bring small but needed indulgences into your life...also an essential.

Awesome!; 18 February 2011 at 08:45
Kimberly Kaye said...: Interesting little project. I like that there are totems from the journey that you're scattering around.

Although--I don't know if stealing toilet paper's such a bad thing. I'm finally in a position where I don't need to steal it quite as much, but still do. You wipe your ass with it...you MUST wipe your ass with it..so there's no better item to allow to be stolen, or to steal. It should flow like karma either way.; 18 February 2011 at 09:19
claire bangasser said...: What an enchanting time capsule, tinkerbell, an altar of sorts. It is good to see you this way. You make my heart feel good :-) Thank you!; 18 February 2011 at 09:43
Grammy said...: You have made awesome steps to a wonderful place you now stand. I send you a big hug and lots of love.; 18 February 2011 at 13:40
X. Dell said...: That's something I never thought to do. Fascinating.; 19 February 2011 at 12:20
chickory said...: wonderful. I love that you are rediscovering the goodness in the world. there are so many sorrows we forget about the little beauties. Im so proud of you.

i looked at your tumblrs last night. interesting. i wish i had learned css as you have . I would so customize my blog. is this the kind of work that you do? or are you still a nurse?; 19 February 2011 at 20:06
Anonymous said...: great time capsule. such a unique collection of treasures. Thank you for sharing, Tinkerbell.; 21 February 2011 at 02:34

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Love is Louder [Vol. 2]

Friday, February 18, 2011

Time Capsule

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