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Gah! I'm shitting-my-pants scared. That's good, I think. It demonstrates that I have given this some serious, serious thought. This time, it's not some hypomanic pie-in-the-sky fantastical scheme. It's the painfully obvious truth. Painfully. Yes, I mourn endings, even and especially this ending. I mustn't give into despair. Still, for a time I feel as though I must despair, as a way to pay homage to the painful price someone dear has to pay for my honesty. I think of guilt as a punishment I receive for hurting others. How long a sentence do I serve? When does hope stop feeing forbidden?
Edit ~ 3.02.10: this week's Wishcasting asks us, what story do you wish to live or let go of?
This post ~ written Monday ~ seems a fitting answer to these questions which Jamie poses this week. I wish to live the story of authenticity, of love, of truth. Also, discipline, which I need, in order to commit to myself, to my creative spirit, to my relationships. I wish to let go of the stories of guilt and mourning. I wish to let go of the story of fear. Also anger. In it's place I wish to embrace acceptance, understanding and tolerance. I wish to live peace, patience, and courage ~ I will need these to weather the enormous changes on my horizon.
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This pain/fear might be courage that has spoken its prayer.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, I wish for her also!
May what is coming to you be weathered with calm and peace..may it flow by you like a gentle river. Roxanne...I am sending energy your way hon....and a good strong hug!
Namaste, Sarah
As Roxanne wishes for herself, I wish for her also!
Rock on. Kick fear and anger to the curb and give yourself a big authentic hug. Awesome.
~as Roxanne wishes for herself so I wish for her too...may you find the sun shining bright along the horizon...may you wake each day feeling the love inspiration and desires to "live the story of authenticity"...beautiful wish indeed...brightest blessings~
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her as well.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. Enjoy the journey of your story.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, I wish for her also!
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!
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As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. My wish is very similiar this week, may we both let go of fear and be our authentic selves.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also. Be brave and embrace the fear as part of your healing.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!
As Roxanne wishes for herself, I wish for her also!
Your (1) Commandment for 2010 "Let Go" is a good one and the key to it all. Amazing things happen when you can finally let go. It is difficult but I encourage you and know that you will find the strength to do this as I have myself learned this after a hard life of struggles and living with massive guilt. Stay strong!
as roxanne wishes for herself, so i wish for her also. i hope you find peace!
as roxanne wishes for herself, so i wish for her also. i hope you find peace!
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also! There is a great authenticity print out on Brene Brwn's website. I hung mine on my mirror.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
As Roxanne wishes for herself, I wish for her also!
My first time to your blog - it is fascinating! You are fascinating! As Roxanne wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
Yes, shit-scared can sometimes be good. Unfortunately. Lots of good wishes from me also.
As Roxanne wishes for herself so do I wish for her also!
as you wish for yourself, I wish for you also...
(glad to have found your site — I love the truth, power, poetry and beauty I experience from you.)
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